Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep
When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams
When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink
Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all

Uh, developin' bad habits
first hit I ever took was like magic
Ran out so I had to get more
every night blowin' smoke out the bathroom window
Tryna hide the smell from my parents
but my blank stare made my usage apparent
Pipe and a lighter stuffed in a shoebox
in the backyard, got a gram and some moon rocks
Who would've thought that I would try opiates?
Old manager had copious amounts
Homies around me doin' cocaine
rubbin' all the extra dust on the inside of they mouth
Fans at the show, they offerin' me substance
take it and give it to my security guards
They smokin' it outside of the hotel
trippin', I guess it ain't really weed at all
Hittin' my vape on a plane, I'm high every day
stress from the newfound fame
It feel like holes in my brain formin'
years spent runnin' from the pain
Can't think straight, don't stop
try another strain, doin' it just to maintain
What do you gain? Staying up all night tweaking
Roll it up, breakin' down again, again

Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep
When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams
When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink
Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye
I take the fall without a second thought
don't care if I survive
I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye
I take the fall without a second thought
don't care if I survive
I'll risk it all

I'll risk it all chasing that first hit
or something to quench my thirst with
Started drinking over the pandemic more heavily
nicotine with the bottle so heavily
Beer, malt liquor, whiskey
tequila in the freezer, celebrate for no reason
Wake up feelin' like shit, then do it again
homie notified he losin' a friend
Overdosed on them pills laced with fent
we were buyin' so many drugs, we barely made rent
Experiment with them shrooms and the acid
my homie fried himself, he never came back
Only thing keepin' me sane was making tracks
writin' raps I didn't know would earn me plaques
Smokin' until both my lungs turned black
blowin' up saved me from dying on crack
I lose sleep thinking about that
what if I had died before I could do great things?
I cannot forgive myself, my pipe on the shelf
clean and unused, paying my dues
To this day I wouldn't change a thing
everything I've been through's sacred
Everyday faded, a kid extractin' the love from the hatred
And because of that I made it

Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep
When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams
When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink
Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye
I take the fall without a second thought
don't care if I survive
I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye
I take the fall without a second thought
don't care if I survive
I'll risk it all