(I need a change)
I need a change to keep everything from changing

Nothing's ever stagnant
It's all ever-changing
I keep adapting and updating
Learning and rearranging
A future I planned out is now ever-fading

I used to pray to God for a right mind
For a lifetime of growth
But if getting older is meant to be some spectacle
Then I've been seated in the wrong show

And the one constant that never leaves
Pandora's box
My Achilles' heel
The voices that invade with endless queriеs

Am I way too much or not good enough?
Can I speak up or only shut down?
Should I eat today or starvе once more?
Do I hide my body and celebrate my sexy?
Am I man, woman, an evolution
Or somebody's mere plaything?
Do I even have the right to love?
Will I ever be deserving of true love?

I'd sell my soul to turn back the clock
To repent sin, renounce the truth
To reclaim innocence, regain my youth
But I wonder, “would i be able to change anything at all? ”

If my existence is a constant cycle of nothing but change
Then what can I change for a better present?
For a better future?

I need a change to stop everything from changing

How does one transition
In peace, in pieces
And finally become whole?